holy fuck its been a while! hi my name is katie just in case you have forgot!
so i was trying to upload a photo of a cake my friend i made that looks like a real pumpkin. how ever it is not uploading at this moment.
I have nothing to do this weekend and i'm sooo happy about that. last weekend i went to kc with my friend and her kid to watch my sisters kids so she and her husband could go to the football game. it has made me realize how much my sister and i have grown up. things that used to make us angry for the whole trip and make everything spiral out of control are now takin with a grain of salt. witch is awesome because she wasn't feeling well and i was in the car with a 5 year old who couldn't wait to get there. and something had gone wrong with the hotel res and i wasn't there to fix it and she forgot about it..so we had a little fight and i was telling my friend aww here we go.. the whole trip is going down hill now. but when i got there walked in the room everyone wasn't as upset as they had been. it was over the bump in the road was gone we weren't going to let that bring down the whole trip.. anyways what i'm saying is we have grown and became each other's best friend. it has took 26 years for us to get to this point we are the only ones who have almost walked in the same shoes. growing up we had to be each others friend because fuck our parents we to busy fucking our lives up. we were each other's rock we had to be. no one else was going to keep us together. i depended on her so much for everything if there was a problem she took care of it. i didn't go to our parents i went to her. i think because we had to depend on each other so much growing up we needed the last few years to be our own person to come back and be a better sister to each other.
I was always amazed how free spirited she was and still is. no one is going to tell her no she is going to do it anyways. growing up i always watched her because i knew she was going to do it first, and if she didn't get in to trouble i could get a way with it too! i remember when i was 6 and she was 9 for some reason there was a huge bowl of uncooked rice on the table and i waked past it and thought i want to stick my hand in there but didn't next comes a long my sister who for sure stuck both hands in there and got a way with it .. i was excited she didn't get into trouble because then i got to do it!
I got used to my sister fighting my battles for me. against our parents against the world against anyone. but i had to finally learn i needed to do this on my own and do a pretty good job doing it .. learned from the best.. but it has been hard because we have always lived near each other but the last 3 years she has lived 5 1/2 hours away. its hard to be so far a way and i hate it, but i don't want to move again. i'm tired of moving i'm tired of making new friends i've moved so may times in my life and i love omaha. but my heart is not here my sisters kids are my heart and i don't get to see them grow up as much as i want to. i don't know what i want to do. i have a job that pays the bills i know this job inside and out. I'd have to change everything. ugh anyways. 46 days until i get to see them again :) for 11 days!
i love my sister because she fixes things and makes them happen no matter what the issue maybe.
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